Is This A Life?

I grow tired of this endless journey
Remembering
Forgetting what it was I was searching for
Struggling to inhale
Drink up your golden suns strewn wildly across waves of soft green
Feel you thrumming
Tuning myself to your breath
Rubbing the sorrow from my eyes
Emptiness
Feeling always left behind-

Is this a life,
Me losing
Sensation
Hopes dreams Love for anything
Existing only
Always
Hoping to find
You
Waiting to feel
You
Wanting to breathe
You
Feeling instead
Abandoned
Alone
Discarded
Abused?